I want to believe I'm the one who's broken
We try to convince the face in the mirror,
But every night, I sleep with eyes wide open,
Id wish in awe, but mostly in terror.
The grown up before me, trying to stay,
But the child within wants to run away.
How can I blame her, when nobody taught me,
to linger in fire, to drink vodka slowly.
I am perfect, far from broken
I'm a star, a satellite,
High above, always bright,
Your wins and sins won't be forgotten.
I have no right to shed any tears,
I'm just a meteorite with no fears,
I don't deserve all your compassion,
For I live in reckless passion.
To be seen, is to be loved,
For only those who take their time
to truly paint our storms in blue.
to really scrutinize us through,
know how to love,
know how to fly.
Those who hold you so warmly,
your cold body melts down
and all version of you, so lonely,
collapse like ashes, becoming one.
I fought for years
against injustice,
when did my fears
become so monstrous.
I promised you
I was a good child
but I was a misfit,
and in a world so vile,
to be rare is a crime.
There are monsters I can't fight
can I stay with you tonight?
mom, I'm scared, please hold me tight
don't leave me alone, don't turn off the light.
In anger,
I found her.
holding a vase,
a glass, a cup.
about to drop,
about to break.
Ran her own nails down her skin,
hold on tight to the ceramic.
Burning cholera within
the voice inside raging frantic.
Cut the rope and wave goodbye
say you're too young to understand
this poison love, this "dirty high"
flood with tears the gravel sand.
Drain my body and tame my mind,
drink my soul and fade my light,
and if you please tear up this heart,
for it's been broken for a while.
Blame your mother for this mess,
I've got nothing to confess,
just your dopamine in distress
no one to curse, yet no one to bless.
But don't you ever even stake
the claim that any of me was fake,
you carved a path that made us whole,
between my legs, into my soul.
I don't mind how many times you'll tell me you're broken
all I ever see is heaven-worthy, brown eyes, wide open.
They called you a loser, a failure, disgrace of a man,
but those are just voices inside of your head.
Turned a king into a prince
a castle into sand.
Brought a man down on his knees,
for I couldn't understand.
The spellbinding way
that brought him to my side.
All that I would wish to say,
Please do never leave my life.
He stayed fierce until the end,
Said he was entirely mine.
what a sad fate to contend,
against the demons in my mind.
I swear to god I'd give my life
For a glimpse of paradise
My helpless neck between your hands
My lust is wrong but you feel right.
I've heard your voice so far away
I've caught you staring everyday
You're luring me, I know your ways
You twisted soul, you double face!
Seducing young innocent girls
I've read in books your ancient name
You sled your hand between brown curls
Parade that golden ring, no shame.
I'm good, I'm fair, I'm nice and kind,
but please take me with you tonight
make me scream, moan and cry
Taste my heaven, set fire inside.
For all I find within a friend
in a lover, I can't get.
It's been a year, or maybe twelve,
I'm still alone, I'm still afraid.
A vast empire of passion and creation
rivers of gold, towers of steel,
but above it all, it was king's inspiration
he conquered all land beneath his heel.
My planet was certainly no exception
troops from hell would make us kneel.
The love he swore was deep and real,
until it brought his own damnation.
His thirst grew soon out of dimension.
Every land known to mankind
submitted to his wicked mind.
But there remained a lingering obsession
for that realm he could not claim
and all the beasts he did not tame.
It was the ever-spinning gears
around our wrist, to count the years.
And so in vain, he will decease,
in pain and madness, for time won't cease.
The day envies the night
the night can dance to every song
the night can fight
the night is young.
The sober day just can't keep up
with so much passion, so much fire.
The day is pure, pristine and bright,
it bathes my soul in sacred light.
But my spirit only flies
with the night between my thighs.
So prison was a disease
and lovers were the cure.
They came in hordes, with no ease.
Took them daily, like pills,
one for joy, one to endure,
one for sex, one for the bills.
You know when to pull the trigger,
you know how to drive me mad,
push the buttons, find my anger,
you're a bitch! Sunnette, you're bad!
Take a look at what you did,
turned my castle into sand,
threw my dreams into a pit,
made my kingdom brittle land.
You say you're from Gaia, while standing on Mars,
I know you don't care I come from the stars.
You held your stubborn head up high,
But you never wanted to gaze at the sky.
And that's okay, that's alright,
I'll keep you close, I'll hold you tight.
And that's just fine, you can cry,
I'll stay right here with you tonight.
But let me tell you of lovers and friends,
I know it hurts, but soon it'll make sense.
Your Earthly heart will find some peace,
New love will get your search to cease.
No, she won't be from outer space,
she will caress your flawless face,
and you will fall back to the ground,
but you will land all safe and sound.
